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current | archives | profile | links | rings | cast | reviews | email | notes | host | image | design Getting Better Dear Diary It's now a new year and in 3 months my life has once again changed considerably. I now have a job, a simple admin job in a furniture store. I answer phones, type orders, deal with queries and am just starting to get some of my social skills back. It's a small office, 4 of them are around my age, and 3 others are older. There's Laura1 a martyr who is always ill with something and always ready to stir up any bitching. Then theres Laura2 who is the typical valleys girl, funny, explosive and a little dumb (or pretending to be more than she is). A guy called Gary who goes around farting for jokes, a quiet boy but knows everyone and is always out drinking. Laura2 and Gary have a little spark going on, but I don't think much is happening with it. Neither of them seem to know what they're doing. Its sweet really. And then there's Ian, the one person I feel somewhat close to since I've started working there. He's funny, quick on his feet, a bit of a player and he pretends to be callous but has really helped me settle in. I had a bit of a crush on him the first 3 months and I think it's starting to fade a little now. James has moved out. He has his own place, which is of course bigger and better than mine, and literally right dowen my street. He didn't mean to but it's just another thing I feel a little jealous about now. He has more money from his job, a bigger place (top floor two bedroms, two bathrooms). As much as I resent that he's grown up with a priveleged life and even now, when he's supposed to be struggling, he's ended up just as privileged...I still wouldn't swap his family life with mine. At least I had one, it may have been for a shorter time but I had my mother, she loved me and I never felt that I had to question it. So let James have his money and his material stuff. Sometimes I still feel like the winner out of both of us. We are still together and we see each other at least once a week, sometimes more. It's not much really but I have been so busy. Mondays and Tuesdays I'm in work from 9am to 5:30pm, then I have to go straight to college from work and that's from 6pm to 9pm. The rest of the week I'm in work, I have two days off a week - usually one day in the week and one day at the weekend. Which I spend cleaning my flat or doing my homework. I'm also just starting to learn how drive, my first lesson is on saturday at 10am. I am terrfied! But it was about time, I have to get 2 buses and walk for 15-20 minutes to get to where I work, then from there to college I have to get another bus and a taxi otherwise that half an hour window isn't enough to get me there on time. If I drove, then I may not be so knackered every day. Especially as from next week, our hours in work is increasing. Business is just crazy. Darren the boss is hiring another person to work in the office and is increasing the hours to 8am-5pm and 10am-7pm. So monday and tuesday will be basically a 13hr shift with college aswell. But generally life has gotten better. I'm tired, stressed and overworked but I'm grateful. I have a job. I have a home. I still have love in my life and I'm beginning to have some friends...well...at the very least, work acquaintances, who go out together often. I've been invited to go out for Jen's birthday tomorrow at an indian. Jen is 55 and she's the "mother hen" of the place. Patronising and lecturing, glory chasing and self important but she does look after us. love
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