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current | archives | profile | links | rings | cast | reviews | email | notes | host | image | design Hello, its me again Dear Diary Today is one of the first few days that I have felt utterly free. The sun may only be metaphorically shining but it feels good while it is. I did something today that was entirely my own. Not shared with my family, or with James or through the people I work with on a day to day basis, I went out with a friend who I have known for many years yet truly met her for the first time this evening. I didn't expect such a level of anxiety on the very short train ride up. Like a blind date I felt it was possible the evening would hold awkward silences and embarrassed conversation. But it held neither. Despite the initial oddity as I had never met a person in real life that I had first known through the internet, I found it exciting to think that while we know each other so well, I had absolutely no idea how the night would pan out. This 2 hour moment for myself, not shared by others, was truly something I needed as I already feel like a bit more life has been breathed back into me. I don't feel like the tired and stretched/stressed girl who is muddling her way through her life. I feel liek me, the true essence of me that is proudly displayed on each of these pages. The text version of me. My friend is a wonderful woman and it was so wonderful to meet and talk to her. She understood me and I understood her in a way neither strangers or friends will, who do not connect through this medium of diary. And after 2 hours with this woman, I was inspired. So thank you when you read this. And next time drinks are on me! love
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